The Male World: Men in my Life...or not in my life yet

(family not included)

KO: The Arrogant, Slutty Writer
To me, he stands as the reason behind my crazy, eccentric character and he usually puts sense into me. You see, i can be quite blonde sometimes and he keeps me, let's just say, a brunette which i really am. He is my platonic husband and we usually keep each other company while we are still single and looking hopelessly for love. He wants to be a writer someday and i think he will be...if he just puts his mind to it. Ko is a wonderful guy with great potential but he needs to find an unknown balance in his life. One sure thing about him is that he is an arrogant bastard but ironically, he is down to earth also. You love to hate him and you would hate to love him. But that he is, loveable. He and I share critical and sarcastic conversations about everything but we bring out the best in everything too. We share the same frustrations with family and love. I guess that's why we're drawn to each other. We're brought together to bring sarcasm and love to the world.

Oat: The Quiet, Thoughful and is in need of Tact Gay Friend
Oat is one of a kind. If he just had a vagina, he would be the perfect girl bestfriend. He and I share talks on guys, popstars and of the heart. He is truly a genuine person, in the sense that he would tell you exactly what he feels without restraint. Sometimes I think he lacks tact but I guess he has just kept his mouth shut too long to stop it now. He understands my "girl" drama and he and I fight about every little thing but we get over it in a flash. We just love to bitch out at each other for no particular reason but that's how we love each other. He gives me reason to be feminine and to embrace my femininity. I envy him for knowing what he wants and running after it whether it costs him his heart. I wish I was that brave. Oat is a very pure person and he is passionate about the things he want that he really treasures them and is not afraid of what otehr people think. If he had a motto it would be, "I am what I am, if you don't like it then...(slap, slap) Bitch." He is such a character that it's hard not to laugh when you're around him.

Angelo: The Hopeful Lost Cause
Well...what can i say that would not bring me any heartache when it comes to Angelo. Nothing! He is just the one guy that I would not be willing to give up. He is that guy you think you're so perfect and compatible with but you can never have. He broke my heart and he doesn't know it. He will think of me, until the end of his life, as a sister and that's that. I guess my feelings happened at the wrong time, wrong group of friends but at the right moment. Does that makes sense? I don't know if it will ever happen but i remain hopeful and in regret.

Gian: The Clueless (or not) Panda Man
I hang out at Starbucks whenever I have a chance to and that's a lot of times. At the same time, I love chubby guys; guys who has some junk on their trunk. So when those two things collide (Starbucks and chubby guys) you get Gian. The nice, adorable, Starbucks barista. I guess i was forced into stalker-hood by my friends. At first, i just liked looking at him but eventually information about him kept pouring in and I was a transformed into a Stalker. Thanks guys. But yeah, I think he's cute and cuddly and his head is just shiny.

Ruben: The Musician I just met a couple of hours ago
I was hanging out at Starbucks and this serenade played and he was playing it behind our seats by himself. So an epiphany happend and i just gathered the courage to talk to him and I did. He moved to sit at our table and he serenaded me for three minutes. I had to leave in a hurry because i needed to go to work. But yeah, it was a friendly flirtation and I wish I will see him again.

XOXO Yana

Thanksgiving, Thank You

On the Menu:

1. Ham with brandy and sugar drizzled on top

2. Meatloaf

3. Creamy Mashed Potatoes and Gravy

4. Spinach Salad

5. Corn Bread

6. Red Wine or Apple Cider

Yes, you read it right. We did not have turkey. Just thought that we would have cooked it dry and it would just be a waste. It turned out good. It was our official thanksgiving dinner and it was all perfectly imperfect. All was semi home made and spectacular.

XOXO Yana

My Only Politically-concerned Blog

I woke up this morning to a brand new era. Barack Obama is elected president. This is truly a morning to remember for the momentous "change" that people has been asking for is about to happen. Or has it already happened? But I do feel the change in the air and although I myself am not a big politics fan, I do feel a sense of unity as of listening to his heart-felt speech. It does seem like change is coming and his "yes we can" catch-phrase surrounds the white house. I hope it does happen. Not anytime soon but I hope it will.

Another thing that is plaguing the morning news is the issue concerning Proposition 8. It seems that people still oppose the same-sex marriage. Except in Virginia where as my mom would call it, the lesbian state. I do feel a little loss for those people who are already married and might be affected greatly by this defeat. Although I am not married, not even once, it still seems like a tragedy to not be considered married after getting married. It is a sad, sad thing but I do think that this is only the beginning of another war that will go on for years to come. I do feel that everything that has to do with human rights on this country pull through. It may not happen now or the next year but I do know this, the gay community will have their rights because this country is a land of hopes and dreams and justice.

XOXO Yana

In Deep Need of an Eye Cream

If you work from 7pm to 7am, you pretty much have a fucked up time clock. You live like a campire... still awake in the dead of night...with very unattractive eye bags to boot. You see, my job is simple, STAY THE FUCK AWAKE! It feels like I am living another life; one that seems like an alter-ego, like I am secretly an exotic dancer every night. Yeah effing right! I can't even shake the junk in my trunk.

Daylight is my enemy and the moon's light is where the money's at. I took this kind of job because it pretty much works out to my family's advantage and my social event's calendar but not at all for some seriously needed beauty sleep. For 12 hours, I have it all to myself. I pretty much use it to read books I have been wanting to read, catch up on my latest gossip, organize my phone planner, listen to 4000 songs on my ipod and have peaceful thoughts all to myself.

I drive back home at 7am and gaze at my driving companion, the sun. By the time I get home, I can easily drive my brother to his school unless my mom's going to church. Then I can sleep through daylight and wake up if my mom needs me. I try to get at least 6 hous of sleep then I can have a couple of hours of sleep then another couple hours to get errands done, catch up with my mom, pick up my brother from school, eat a big 6pm dinner then go back to work. Perfection!

The days i haev to work is not hat bad either. I work from Sunday night to Thursday morning.

I just seriously need some anti-eyebags and I'm all set.

XOXO Yana

I Fly High, No Lie... Ballin!

If you are one of the readers of Karma Police you probably know by now that... I got a Job or what others call it, a YAB!!! I have been waiting patiently for months now and finally I got one. I will not specify here what kind for privacy purposes. Trust me, it's not that exciting anyway.

It was a good day today because my ideal weather just started and I can feel that somehow, even if it is just for today, my karma is changing. Like i mentioned earlier, the weather is getting much better, very good for dressing up fashionably. Yeahye! The "Big Elephant" in our house has not dampened anything, so far. Ko and I upgraded from dollar meals and value menus to Pho (Vietnamese food). Pho Boy from Pho 94 was there and he kept eyeing me. Maybe he wasn't but I was having a very good day that I decided to accept the earlier conclusion. He kinda had a little tantrum and some vietnamese cussing going on but whatevs. So I got into my car and started working. It was fairly easy. Not as easy as i'd expected but it was reasonable. I had some time to read "The Book Thief" which is what I've been trying to find time to do since forever. On the way home, I got lost, missed my exit but good thing I exited on familiar territory that I figured out how to get back home. See KO?!?!? I'm not that dumb when it comes to directions. hehehe! So I went home to the smell of good home-cooked food. What more could I ask?

XOXO Yana

Chill Out Project

I woke up to a colder weather today. My type of weather. Is Fall finally here? It's been around for weeks but I think it just came out today. I Love it. I wish I have a fireplace to sit in front of with some hot chocolate and some Jason Mraz music or what I call "rain music." Maybe this is the "high energy" that my horoscope is telling me about. If it is, it definitely made my day. If not, I'll be looking forward to it then.

XOXO yana

Getting the Hang

Who knew blogging can be addicting? I better get help while it's still early. Nah, who am i kidding?

So I just put up a playlist for myself. I am a very particular person when it comes to music. I used to tell people, "I listen to everything" when in fact I do not. I used to think that I do. Now, I rarely listen to hiphop music. I do not like screamo music. I like r&b but nowadays, all of them sounds the same. But enough about that. I like the music I listen to and that's that.

Waking up this morning is such a pain because of last night. Me and my friend Ko took our other friend Hetal to dinner yesterday. We decided to go to Olive Garden. The wait was not that bad. But our orders were. Don't get me wrong, the food was awesome. I guess we just ordered a little too much. the appetizers is what killed us. As if that wasn't enough, our main course arrived. It was effing good but I was this close to throwing up and live the life of a bulemic (mind the wrong spelling) person. We just never know when enough is enough. But it was goooooood...

So i woke up feeling like my body's is a brick. great...

But it's another day and I better not eat as much. Hey, my mom just took home some breakfast burritos...this isn't looking too good...

XOXO yana